26 January 2008

In the Acorn Sleeps the Oak Tree

Its been a while. I can't believe that its still only January. I my new home, I have been pushing really hard to start consciously creating my life, the way I want it to be. That hasn't really been working. Well it gets me into frantic action, but it feels horrible. So I've been trying to stay with taking action and just letting things happen. I keep seeing a picture in my mind of snowdrops (the sky is a bright nursery blue here right now) just begining to push there way out of the ground. What I've been trying to do it pull them all out of the ground and open their little white faces. I opened a budding flower once as a child. It was unsettlingly unsatisfying. I'd brought the blossiming process screechingly to a premature end and the little flower looked startled and droopy and like it didn't know how to hold its face up to the sun. Such a shame!

So I've decided to be where I am. Keep taking action and just focus on enjoying each moment, remembering that right here is the destination. Living in a city that I love, speaking its language and walking its streets just makes being in the moment so easy. Here are some of the many things I love about Madrid:

You can go and see a film in the late afternoon, then do some shopping, go for dinner with friends, go and see another film and around midnight and then meet up with people for drinks.

In the place where I used to live everything smells nice. Rosemary, wood, washing powder, smoke.

There is so much light!

The light is warm, bright blue and soft at the same time.

Its actually getting warm now.

Most things are in walking distance.

It has all the advantages of a big city and the feel of a small town.

Its easy to meet people.

If you go to a bar, cafe or restaurant, the people remember you (for years) and talk to you when you go.

There are a lot of small businesses, shops, cafes, bars, that have a really unique feel.

AND I am free, living somewhere I love, making a lot of new friends and taking big steps in creating what I want, even when that just means being who I am.